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Friday, 08 August 2008

watching Beijing Olympics

Current status: watching the Beijing Olympics, live on TV, with my computer in from of me.

I saw the first half of the beginning ceremony, and all I can think is... wow. China is SCARY. How hot and sweaty the performers have been...

I mean, it's just scary. 2008 drummers? lol...

Currently the countries and their representative (athletes) are being heralded in procession. Korea's the 174th or something out of 204 countries, so we still have a long way to go. ^^

Thursday, 07 August 2008

God in Everything.

There was a mini-incident today. It was kinda funny.

Mother: "why did you get a call from [friend's name] yesterday?"

Me: "Er, well, we're meeting this Saturday for acting practice. The show's on August the 23rd."

Mother: "Have you memorized your lines yet?"

Me: *uncomfortable squirm* "I'm going to, before we meet up this Saturday."

Mother: "Wait, this Saturday?" Nice going mom, slooow reaction. "You're not going there this Saturday?"

Me: "There?" Does she mean the Alzheimer's center I go to every Saturday? "You mean--"

Mother: "I mean the appointment at 10:30, when we meet up with one of your cram school teachers to discuss your plan."

Me: "Oh. It was this Saturday?"

Mother: "Yes, I've been telling you all week!" You did? I gave her the benefit of the doubt-- a sign of God changing me, for not a few months ago I would have denied it--instead of crossing her on the subject of her memory.

Me: "Oh well, couldn't we do anything...?"

Mother: "You mean, this silly acting thing is way more important than your future plan?"

I was silent. Then, in a meek voice: "They have no replacements for my role, mother."

Mother: "Tell them you're going next week." But there is no practice next week. I bit my tongue again and returned to the computer.

Mother: "You're still going on the computer?"

"It's xanga, mother." She left me in peace.

I meandered around facebook and xanga for a while before I spotted the entry on Inner Peace. Then I suddenly felt a sense of peace settle over my heart. Inwardly, I smiled.

I'm just going to pray, and hand over the prioritizing to the Lord. He knows me better than I do, and I need to "surrender" to him.

Peace, man. Peace.

Saturday, 02 August 2008

In Hawaii...

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New York was tiring after my mother came with my sister. We went shopping. For four days in a row. I didn't go on the last day because I was too tired and passed out >.<

And... I don't know. I don't write as I used to. I guess now, just like the Anne in the Anne of Green Gables series, I prefer to keep things to myself. Some things are only those that can be shared with the God Almighty.

It's a pleasure to write, regardless, especially for my summer assignments. In the discussion boards, people tended to reply a lot to the short posts and not reply to the long posts... just another example of human lethargy. But it's all good.

Hawaii is utterly unique. But sometimes I catch myself being homesick. Why is it that in New York, I did not miss America, yet when I came here I caught myself thinking of Korea?

... thoughts, little thoughts swimming around my head, wanting to be caught. They are caught, held onto, able to grow in the brain, instead of being let out in the world and being captured in Time.

    Time is truly paradoxical...

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   It's as if a veil was released from my sight... It's strange, this queer, queer feeling, the feeling of being almost detached. I am not unsettled by my mother's words as I used to be; nor do I really care anymore about what others think of me-- yet, now I know the importance of not blurting every single little thing out here.
   It's truly strange. And all because I decided to read a little bit of the Bible everyday. It does truly work wonders...

Friday, 18 July 2008

What would you change about the way your parents raised you?

Less whipping. More acceptance. Less "do this, do that," more trust and more of "how are things going?"

Saturday, 12 July 2008

Loving America all the way

AHHHHH I still have to do my summer assignments. But it's okay-- the reading was long, but it felt like I was reading a novel more than a textbook. So its okay.
Anyhow, I'm currently staying in Long Island with my two annoying but absolutely adorable cousins. They're both boys, but its okay-- they haven't reached the age yet where boys seem to become thick in the head. Though, it's kind of sad, since one is only four years old and he wears glasses that are stronger than mine...
My BELL session was simply awesome. I won't go too much into detail, because honestly, some things are just so secret that to reveal them would be tearing a piece out of you. All I can say is that it was life-changing and simply superb, and that now, I have a restored fiery passion for the environment.
It was so sweet.. I learned all over again how to value nature. How to value innocence and sweetness in a world that is becoming more greedy and greedy everyday. I learned the basics all over again...
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